Damn life is good....

The past 6 months of my life have probably been the best. I'm almost certain that it has nothing really to do with outside circumstances either. There was a turning point a few months back...thanks to AJ. I won't go into details, but since that moment in time things have started to change for me. I made a decision to focus on the good in life and to stop living in fear.

For those of you that know me well, you know that I used to FREAK OUT about lots of things in my life. Usually once a month I'd have some sort of meltdown about something or other. Fear ruled my life. I was afraid of the future, I was afraid that I got married too soon, I was afraid I'd never get back to California to live near my family, I was afraid I'd never figure out what I wanted to do with my life, I was afraid of what people would think if I didn't go back to school. It was so awful. Really. I cannot believe I put myself through all of that.

But now I can breathe again...

I know some of you may be thinking, "Come on Shea, there's a lot of really great things that have been happening lately, so that's probably why you feel differently." Well, you don't have to believe me, but I'm here to tell you that I fully believe that these wonderful things would never have happened had I been stuck in my old frame of mind. Good things have always happened for AJ and I, it's kind of freaky actually. As you all know, AJ is one of the most infectiously positive people and I think that his outlook on life attracted a lot of amazing things. But now that both AJ and I are on the same page about life, I believe that we are attracting even more goodness into our life. I always like to joke and say that the universe has really been on our side lately, but I wonder how much of a joke it really is. I suppose it all comes down to if you believe in the law of attraction or not. I do. Without a doubt. I think sometimes the good things are there all along just waiting for you to see them or recognize them. But when you live in a dark cloud of fear, its really hard to see the good. When that cloud was lifted, it was as if I was living in a new world full of light and energy and life. All kinds of good things started popping up all over the place. Its been truly amazing to be a part of...and I can't wait to see it keep unfolding in my life.